Monday, April 6, 2009

MOST.. the movie

I learned something about myself this weekend...

I'm the girl who fast forwards thru that part in Top Gun when Goose dies in the ocean... I'm the girl who fast forwards that part in "What Lies Beneath" when the lady comes up from the bathtub, gasping for air... I often change the topic when the conversation gets uncomfortable... there I said it... UNCOMFORTABLE...

I hinted at it in my last post, but I HATE, IGNORE, AVOID uncomfortable... but I know there's a lot to be learned from being uncomfortable... decisions can be made, life altering blessings can be seen, experience happens, chance at happiness happens, change for the better happens, love happens...

So I went to church yesterday, knowing that we were going to start off with a movie clip with some speaking and worship music after... it's different, but I love my church, and they have driven me to think deeper before, so I knew it would be good... Now I'm telling you that I got the point of the movie, and it really was superb. Honest! Beautiful on a million levels... the love between a father and a son, the likeness to God's love for Jesus and ultimately us, as His children, the sacrifices a parent makes for love, for humanity, for life... the way that God feels joy, love, and happiness when we overcome the things that haunt us and keep us from being the person He wants us to be... beautiful and moving!

But as I was watching it, I had this huge feeling of fear. I was clearly uncomfortable... I kept glancing away from the screen, my heart sped up a bit more than usual. I knew something was going to happen, but what and to whom? I had a feeling I knew who it was going to be, but hurried breath after hurried breath, I wanted to run away from the train track... Show me the train platform... show the loved ones saying good bye or hello... show me the wind created by the speeding train, the steam passing thru the forrest. But don't show me what I think is going to happen, or if you do, show it to me fast so I can get past the uncomfortable...

I live this way so much of the time... turning away from the uncomfortable... I'm trying to look towards it, but it keeps me where I am so often, many times because I'm afraid of what I will discover, or won't discover. I try to psych myself up for new experiences and good life choices. but no breakthru or sudden change is going to happen today... I'm just telling you that I've recognized the pattern... I'm not proud of it, but I really don't know how to tell myself to get past it...

So if I cancel a meeting with you at some where I've never been, or fast forward thru a pivotal part of a film, or go the long way b/c it's what I know and it's in a better part of town, know that it's just who I am... part of my quirky self. I'd like to be more daring, but I'm just not.

How have you overcome uncomfortable? I know we've all been there a time or two...

oh and here's a clip of "MOST"... it's moving and thought provoking, for sure!
(i can't get it embed, so you get the link...)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4N0pRWWfKKw

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Today's the same as yesterday...

I promise this is not a complaint or a gripe or a sob story, it's just fact...

but I'm in a pickle... (hmmm pickle sounds good... I think I have some in the fridge... )

so I have been invited to go sing karaoke tonight, which would be a blast... I'm just not in the mood for new places and people... I'm more in the mood for a dark movie theater and some buttery popcorn :)

edit* I just told her that I wasn't feeling it tonight... I'll see her next weekend for sure! :)

I like my honkytonks and South Austin bubble... it's where I feel comfortable... I think if Stacy London and Clinton Kelly were to critique my life like they critique wardrobes, they would laugh and yell that comfort's over rated and it's what got me to where I am today... I need to expand my activities and look outside of my proverbial life box... my show would be called "how not to live".. not saying my life is bad by any means, but my self-imposed rules and guidelines have put me in to a little box that I don't dare go outside of unless I have someone to do it with me...

Another option tonight is that there's a show in Gruene Hall that a year ago I wouldn't be missing for the world... I love the artist (Adam Hood), and I'd love to see the people that are going to be attending, but for some reason I'm just not feeling it... I'm just not feeling a lot of much lately... I'm just "eh"... not mad, not sad, not angry, not hurt, not happy, not excitable, not inspired, not anything, just "eh"...

I know I should pray more, and I'm going to make a conscious effort to do so... maybe I should look for a Bible study I can do on my own, just for some self exploration that will lead to discovery and the opportunity for betterment... there's a thought... hmmmm...

I'm currently organizing a benefit for a friend of mine, http://www.mybreathoflife.org/, and it's happening the first week of May. I am blessed and honored to be a part of it and I pray we can make a dent in the medical expenses that will definitely be a part of her aftercare, after her double lung transplant 9if you would like to donate, the link should be up soon on the website, or you can contact me and I will get you directed to the right place for it!)

Also, the singles ministry at chruch is growing and the activities are coming together! I'm blessed to be led to organize this, as well. A week from today I will be taking part in the Mighty Texas Dog Walk. I figured if I pay for it, I will go and I think it's going to be a lot of fun. Plus I have a few people that have registered to attend, as well. I'm hoping a large group from church will be interested and want to go...

I've kinda stepped back from the healthy eating, calorie counting, and fitness routine thing... it's really hard to keep up with no schedule... maybe getting my apartment in order will lead me to get back on track with that stuff...

I'm having my carpets steam cleaned on the 23rd, so I'm hoping to get all of my apartment organized and spit spot clean! Ultimately I would like to get my curtains hung up and looking pretty!

oh and... so far this week I've watched Twilight 3 times... I'm in love with a fictional character... I swear! Or maybe it's just remembering the butterflies... butterflies are good... even better when they're real...

Oh and my sister's walking the Avon Walk for the Cure today in Houston... she should just be finishing up her 26.4 miles for the day and she has another 13 tomorrow... I'm beyond proud of her! She continues to inspire and amaze me with her strength and determination... now i just need to inspire myself ;)

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Filter ON!

Suffice to say I just haven't posted anything in a long while... and while I would love to ... wait no, I would NOT love to recap my year thus far, as it's been anything but fantastic, I will give you a couple of the most prominent low-lights... as if I was gettin' my hair did... but it didn't turn out so pretty...

It all started on my birthday, Dec. 30th...

My friendships began to unravel and have now hit the end... a couple of them... one circle, 2 friends, score = 0, b/c I don't think anyone wins here... and it's petty and rediculous... I wouldn't ever tolerate a man talking to me, accusing me, or insulting me the way I felt I was treated, so it's easier for me to let it go... I wish them well, but c'est la vie et bonne chance. Most of all, Au Revoir.

the other stellar part of my year *note sarcasm* was that I got laid off over a month ago. It took around 6 weeks for my first unemployment payment to come in, and I won't even tell you how incredibly rediculous THAT whole process is...

The good things that have happened is that I have been given the opportunity to focus on God more and have started up a Singles minstry group at my church... our first lunch we had 12 ppl show up and have atleast 20 who are interested... I call that success.

Also, I have a friend who has cystic fibrosis. She is Number 5 on the lung transplant list... I am in charge of organizing a benefit for her on Cinco de Mayo (May 5th, for those that are challenged in Espanol)... Say your prayers this all comes together as it should and that we can raise enough money to help cover a portion of her after surgery costs... our goal is $5000. i will be posting details and website stuff when it's ready to go.

The job hunt is boring and completely sucks. I'm not gonna lie. I hate seeing jobs that I am qualified for offering less than half of what I was making previously. That is where things get a little discouraging. I am praying earnestly and steadfastly and trying to stay positive, but I have to be honest and say that my optimism is waning... I find my heart palpitating and this fear is creeping in, as the last time I did this I ended up in a self-enduced depression which went untreated and I became someone I no longer recognize and never want to be again.

So I keep praying that God's plan for me is shown soon, and my heart will be filled and overflow in his grace and happiness.

My friend is having a baby here in the next couple of weeks. The baby is being put up for adoption. I will be at the hospital with her and will be taking pictures of her special day. I need to be strong and show her love and understanding, and strength. I don't know how I will do this, but I know I can.

There are a lot of other things I could write here, but I think this is already too much... I'm just in a place that I really do feel lost and I need to figure out what's next... I want my schedule back! I reached my first weight goal, but haven't been doing anything to get past that... and that disappoints me... so maybe starting April 1st I will jump back on my healthy eating bandwagon and get my exercise routine back in motion...

right now it's too easy to sleep...

so that's what I'm gonna go do...

Sunday, February 1, 2009

I'm an Honest Scrap, I yam!

So Miss Meg tagged me with this little honor, so I thought I'd honor her by blogging about it! So here I go...

Rules are set as follows...
1. Choose...blah, blah, blah...brilliant in content or design
2. Show the...blah,blah, blah...can keep the nifty icon.
3. List at least 10 honest things about yourself
and then I pass this award along to some number of other folks who I find blah blah blah brilliant! Should be pretty easy, since I think there's some pretty blah blah blah brilliant folks i keep up with on a regular basis... (you should see my google reader! woo hoo!)

1. When I eventually get my house, I'd like to decorate my living room with these colors, similar style, but with cream or eggplant sheers... and considering the fact that I want to try and buy this year, it's a distinct possibility it might happen... time to relocate the denim loveseat (cute, but I need something longer with a HUGE oversized reading chair & ottoman) I LOVE sage & eggplant... soooo relaxing!
2.
AND...
3. here are my ten honest to goodness about me things...
1. I've sang on stage a time or two, but I'm no Sarah McLachlan..I wish I was though... I adore her so so much!
2. When I started to actively lose weight I was 216 lbs. I thought I'd die when I hit 150... I let myself down.
3. I wished I would have taken a summer when I was in college to go work at Disney World... it does seem like the happiest place on earth.
4. I really do want to spend more time with my sisters and brother. I want to know their families. (3 boys, 2 girls I have never met!)
5. I want to forgive my biological father for all he's done to me and my siblings, but think it's the one thing I will never truly forgive.
6. I fear money. It's sometimes paralyzing.
7. I suffer from anxiety attacks but rarely tell anyone. To me it's like failing or being weak.
8. I hold back tears when I sing a lot, all because I feel the lyrics. I just don't want people to think I'm a complete sap!
9. I tell so many people about my workout and healthy eating now b/c I don't want to fail myself. It has nothing to do about bragging. It's more of my shame for letting myself go.
10. So far my year has pretty much not been anything what I thought it would be, but I think God has a master plan and it's all part of what he has in store for me next. I just hope the big stuff is almost over. It's been enough, but it hasn't broken me, only shown me how strong I really am. I have been suprised by myself and my heart.

So now I'm passing this along to my lovlies...
1. SheShe... she keeps me grounded in my days of "whoa"...
2. KylaSue... she is the one person I know that gets the 11 yrs of heartache...
3. Elise... b/c she's moved to another city with such gusto and love for something bigger than she knows
4. Jen... she's in love and it's the real deal, and we all need some romance to read about...
5. Nicole... she's in this crazy weight struggle with me, and I am behind her 110%!!! you go, girl!!!
6. Steph... she's one of my favorite heros... not necessarily for the hand she was given last year, and played beautifully, but becuase of the first day I met her... she never let me break, even tho I thought I was going to...
7. Nee'... just because she's who she is...

Friday, January 23, 2009

Recalculate and Regroup!

so you know how I told you about the .24% last post? well funny thing is that I think I need to have my eyes checked b/c once the numbers went up on the wall, I found out I'm tied for 5th place, out of 26 and it's not .24% it's .....

.94%!!! that's almost a full out ONE percent! I'm super excited!!! and I've also realized that hunger isn't a bad thing, I just need to eat more of the good and add in the exercise to take care of the extra, so that I max out around 1500 cals a day... I can totally do that... and i'm burning calories w/o even knowing it!

so enough about the food stuff and calories stuff... the Regrouping part...

I lead a small group and am also a memeber of another small group, neither one met to do any sort of Bible study during the month of December, and January has gotten off to a slow start, but I'm so ready to get back to it all! This year I have been great at making positive changes for myself, and adding in a regular Bible study is going to make it just that much better! I'm quit smoking, except for the occassional random one here and there, I've lost some weight, I'm learning to eat right and count calories (something I was completely terrified of), and now I'm gonna get with this whole Bible study thing and get some time to myself... just me and God... I know that my life will be better for it.

I think I'm in the season of slowing down and making big decisions... sure seems that way, huh? Also this year, I'm going to actively look at buying a house.. GASP! yes.. a place to actually spread all of my stuff out and truly get organized and have fun doing it! I'm not going to stress over it, b/c i know it will all work out the way God has intended it.

Ya know it really is true that when you start handing over stuff to the big guy in the sky, things just seem to fall in to place the way they are supposed to...

Pettyness and stress don't make anything better what so ever!

So live free and live real... it's all gonna happen when it's supposed to!

oh and last night I saw Darius Rucker, Dierks Bentley, and Brad Paisley. Each one of them put on a fantastic set! Darius's was a bit toned down, but the guy has got some serious moves!!! He just seems like the perfect guy to take around the dance floor! Dierks came out strong with "How am I Doin" and it reminded me that it was THAT song that turned me on to him... little white tank top didn't really do it for me, or maybe it was just corporate radio shoving it down my throat that did it for me, I dunno, but suffice to say I did come around when the next single hit the air, and I've been a fan ever since. Brad Paisley... seriously, if you've never seen the guy play guitar, country fan or not, you NEED to do so... this guy was simply amazing and every song it seemed like he had a new 6 string... His stage presence was huge, even if he wasn't, and every song that he played, I found myself saying "Oh yeah! I forgot about that one!"... and then there was the dang "I'm gonna miss her - fishing song" UGH! the coolest thing about that was the giant screen behind him was like being in a big ol' stocktank with pure goggles on.. you could see all the fish everywhere! it was pretty cool! The encore was the more stupid "ticks" song, so we left at that point. I was happy that he did Whiskey Lullaby w/ a hologramed Alison Krauss sitting in (VERY Cool!), and "She's Everything", b/c I simply pretend that some day there will be THAT guy who thinks those things about me... it's just a beautiful song and so simple, when so often we get caught up in the blown up details...

sometimes the best is when we're just who we are... t-shirts, pj pants, and a laptop... oh and throw a pup in there for good measure...

now that's a perfect setting, only if there was a man's chest for me to rest my head on...

so I'm adding
Darius Rucker
Dierks Bentley
Brad Paisley

to my musical list for the year.

Tonight I'm supposed to go see Bob Schneider at Antone's (I won free tix).. now I'm looking for someone to go with... I have a few feelers out but if no one wants to go, I think can do this one alone... it's BOB!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

.24%

not quite a quarter of a whole percent, but almost... but that's where I am on my weight loss after the first week... it may not look like much to your eye, but I'm right on schedule with what my online program says I should be doing...

So I'm feeling a wee bit confident and this whole thing is getting to be so much easier... and funny enough, it's all about awareness!!!!

but what I don't get is that by the afternoon, I'm on the lower edge of my calories, the day's almost done at work, and I'm starving! it's making me want to pick up another handfull of almonds or popcorn... ooohhh do I have some in my drawer? I think i might go pop that popcorn!!!

and YES! it was just as mouth watering and tasty as I'd thought it'd be!

People are calling me inspiring, but what they don't see is that them doing that keeps me excited, inspires me, drives me, because the last thing I want to do, now that everyone's watching, is to fail... I will NOT fail! I don't fail anymore... that's so 99... lol...

good gosh I need to go watch heather's again! I miss that movie! only this time I'll skip the ben & jerry's !

Monday, January 19, 2009

Baubles & Cupcakes

First off, here's a link to a great little contest on Blissful Style of the Blissfully Domestic super blog...go play!!!

oh and one more contest for you from an Etsy shop... love me some Etsy!!! go to the AllOverArt blog to play!!!


Here's my little weekend review... and honestly it was really nice... maybe a tad bit of stress, but that's just proof I'm alive...

So Friday was my first night that I left work "on time"... got home around 6 or so and went to work out for about an hour (Go Me!)... then I went to the store and picked up a few snack items for my Lia Sophia party that was happening on Sat. (all healthy foods - fruits, veggies, low-cal; low-fat crackers)... i only splurged on the HEB Dill Dip... I need to find me a low-fat recipe for this... I just absolutely love it!!! but I can only have 2 tbsp of it at a time (it's 110 cal)...

Saturday morning I feverishly picked up the rest of the open area of my apt (they didn't see where I stashed all the piles of papers and other assorted messes), and prepared for the party. As I was "preparing", I opened the wine, and it was the best wine I'd had in a long long time! maybe b/c I've been working so much and have been stressed beyond my full comprehension lately, but the wine was good... and it was a sign of things to come...

The party was nice. I had myself, the presenter, and a friend w/ her sister...we may have been small in numbers, but we loved the fruit dip and trying all of the jewelery on! Also, we each got a free piece of jewelry for being there, and I got an additional piece for hosting! When it's all said and done I'll be able to get 20% of my total sales in free stuff! The catalog's online and the party's open until Friday! so let me know if you wanna order!

After everyone left and I'd put everything away, I sat down... I just sat down and I think the stress of work and other things lately just finally got the best of me... so I just let my tears fall.. it was just going to be a pity party kind of night! Jen was gonna come over and drink wine with me and watch chick flicks, and then I remembered that the girls where gonna be relaxing at Sissy's, so to Sissy's I went... and I was right where I needed to be! some good friends, some good wine (yes, it was still going at this point... I'm blaming HEB for their $5 bottle of Chardonnay).. home at 4 am (WHOA!!) and staight to bed! I had to be at church to work in my little pre-school room at 11:15,...

Made it to church, then to lunch with Abby (sorry I was a few min. late!!!) and we met up at Cheddar's where I got my veggie place w/ green beans (yum!), glazed carrots, mashed potatoes, broccoli rice casserole (to.die.for!omg!!!) and it came w/ a side salad... now if you aren't familiar with the little bonus they serve w/ their salads, I'm going to tell you i do not have the will power to pass these little things up EVER! they literally melt in your mouth... they are warm... they are tasty... they have butter drizzling off of them...

I give you the Croissant (plus it's really fun to say!!!)

after my guilty croissant was consumed and we finished lunch, we went and worked out... like broke a sweat, lifted some weights, watched some ME television, rolled eyes at parents that bring their toddlers w/ no toys to a fitness center and expects them to behave, meanwhile they are throwing medicine balls into the machine I'm on... UGH! but we were there for an hour and a half, and it felt REALLY good!

After that I went home and got ready for church. We have a service once a month on a Sunday night for Communion and deeper fellowship, and they always serve tasty treats... Last night it was Hey!Cupcake. I had a Red Velvet and a 24 Carrot to go...

Finally got home and did some research on the internets for a class I'm teaching with my small group and finally went to bed...

One great thing about Sat. night is that my friend called. I've missed him. Haven't really talked in a couple of months... hope to talk to him again soon... he made me smile and gave me permission for the pity party... only b/c he doesn't like wine and said I had to get it out of my system before he came to town;)

this week I'm meeting up with people, resolving issues, working late, working out, eating right, oh, and Thursday we're going to see Brad Paisley w/ Dierks Bentley and Darius Rucker. I'm excited to see all 3 b/c at this point, I'd settle for a slowdown ;)

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Healthy Eating Recipes and Websites

What websites do you use for recipes, weight management, and fitness?

I'm going to give a list of those I know of, but I'm always looking for more good healthy and low-cal low-fat recipes... or even some that might not be, but can be caloried-down... :)

Recipe Websites:
www.eatingwell.com
www.cleaneatingmag.com
www.weightwatchers.com
www.sparkpeople.com
www.allrecipes.com
www.hungrygirl.com
www.tasteoftexas.com/recipes
www.foodnetwork.com
www.kraftfoods.com

Weight Loss Tips / Weight Management

Fitness Websites:
www.itrain.com

Fitness Article of the day: courtesy of www.Sparkpeople.com and www.divinecaroline.com
http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/nutrition_articles.asp?id=1209 ( I included the link b/c it's pretty lengthy...)

9 Cold, Hard Weight Loss Truths
What the Diet Industry Won't Tell You
-- By Brie Cadman of DivineCaroline.com

Even if you’re not trying to lose weight, chances are you’ve seen some ideas on how to do so:

“Eat what you want and lose weight!”
“Lose 30 pounds in 30 days!”
“Finally, a diet that really works!”
“Lose one jean size every 7 days!”
“Top 3 fat burners revealed”
“10 minutes to a tighter tummy!”

But these claims are readily rebuked by anyone who’s tried to lose five, 10, or 100 pounds. Losing weight ain’t that easy. It’s not in a pill, it doesn’t (usually) happen in 30 days, and judging from the myriad plans out there, there is no one diet that works for everyone.

Looking past the outrageous claims, there are a few hard truths the diet industry isn’t going to tell you, but that just might help you take a more realistic approach to sustained weight loss.

1. You have to exercise more than you think. The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) recommends getting at least 30 minutes of moderate exercise most days of the week; this includes things like shoveling snow and gardening. And while this is great for improving heart health and staying active, research indicates that those looking to lose weight or maintain weight loss have to do more—about twice as much.

For instance, members of the National Weight Control Registry (NWCR)—a group of over 5,000 individuals who have lost an average of 66 pounds and kept it off for five and a half years—exercise for about an hour, every day.

A study published in the July 28, 2008 issue of Archives of Internal Medicine supports this observational finding. The researchers enrolled 200 overweight and obese women on a diet and exercise regimen and followed them for two years. Compared with those that gained some of their weight back, the women who were able to sustain a weight loss of 10 percent of their initial weight for two years exercised consistently and regularly—about 275 minutes a week, or 55 minutes of exercise at least five days a week.

In other words, things like taking the stairs, walking to the store, and gardening are great ways to boost activity level, but losing serious weight means exercising regularly for an hour or so. However, this doesn’t mean you have to start running or kickboxing—the most frequently reported form of activity in the NWCR group is walking.

2. A half-hour walk doesn’t equal a brownie.

I remember going out to eat with some friends after a bike ride. Someone commented on how we deserved dessert because we had just spent the day exercising; in fact, we had taken a leisurely 20-minute ride through the park. This probably burned the calories in a slice of our French bread, but definitely not those in the caramel fudge brownie dessert. Bummer.

And while it’s easy to underestimate how many calories some foods contain, it’s also easy to overestimate how many calories we burn while exercising. Double bummer. Even if you exercise a fair amount, it’s not carte blanche to eat whatever you want. (Unless you exercise a ton, have the metabolism of a 16-year-old boy, and really can eat whatever you want). A report investigating the commonly-held beliefs about exercising, published in the Journal of the American Dietetic Association, concludes that although exercise does burn calories during and after exercise, for overweight persons, “excessive caloric expenditure has limited implications for substantially reducing body weight independent of nutritional modifications.” In other words, to lose weight, you have to cut calories and increase exercise.

3. You do have time to exercise.

If you have time to check email, watch a sitcom or two, surf the Internet, have drinks, coffee and dinner with friends, go clothes shopping, and on and on, then you have time to exercise. Yes, sometimes you have to sacrifice social, TV, or leisure time to fit it in. Yes, sometimes you have to prioritize your exercise time over other things. But your health and the feeling you get after working out is well worth it.

4. Eating more of something won’t help you lose weight.

The food industry is keen to latch onto weight loss research and spin it for their sales purposes. A prime example is the widespread claim that eating more dairy products will help you lose weight. However, a recent review of 49 clinical trials from 1966 to 2007 showed that “neither dairy nor calcium supplements helped people lose weight.”

This idea—that eating more of a certain type of product will help you lose weight—is constantly regurgitated on supermarket shelves (think low-fat cake, low-carb crackers, whole grain cookies, and fat-free chips), but is in direct opposition to the basic idea behind weight loss—that we have to eat less, not more.

5. Calories in = calories out?

There is a fair amount of controversy over the basic question of how people gain weight. Is it simply a matter of energy intake being greater than energy expenditure? Or is there more too it; do the type of calories we eat matter and can avoiding certain types help to lose or prevent weight? The various low-fat, low-carb, and glycemic index advocates can’t seem to agree on which it is.

However, most can agree, and logical sense would tell us, that drinking 500 calories of soda is not equal to eating 500 calories of fruits and vegetables. One is simply “empty” calories—those that provide no real nutritional benefit and don’t do much to combat hunger. Whether you ascribe to the simple idea of trying to burn more calories than you take in or focus on avoiding certain types of calories, you want to minimize intake of empty calories, and maximize nutrient-dense calories.

6. Your body is working against you.

Most people have noticed that it’s hard to lose weight, but easy to gain it. This is a relic of harder times, when food was not as abundant as it is today. Our genetic taste buds made energy-dense food desirable because it was necessary to pack away calories so we could make it through the thin times. We feasted when we could, in preparation for the famine.

But now that we live in a time of abundance, that system predisposes many of us for weight gain and retention. And for obese dieters, this system is even harder to overcome; after weight loss, they become better at storing fat, making it harder to keep weight off. However, this isn’t to say that many haven’t lost weight and kept it off successfully. It just means you have to be diligent.

7. Our cultural environment is also working against you.

Let’s face it, modern society does not make it easy on those trying to eat healthfully and exercise. According to Linda Bacon, associate professor of nutrition at University of California at Davis, “We get a tremendous amount of pressure to eat for reasons other than nurturing ourselves, and over time, people lose sensitivity to hunger/fullness/appetite signals meant to keep them healthy and well nourished. It’s hard for people to come to a healthy sense of themselves given the cultural climate, and nutritious and pleasurable options for healthy food are not as easily accessible as less nutritious (ones).”

That doesn’t mean this can’t be overcome, but it does require maybe putting other parts of your life on a “diet.” TV would be the biggest culprit, since many food advertisements, especially for children’s junk food, come during this time. Other areas to put on a “diet” are chain and fast food restaurants (where portion sizes are distorted), a bad-influence friend, or driving, which may help increase walking and biking.

8. Maybe you don’t need to lose weight.

Some feel that the medical problems associated with excess weight are exaggerated. Gina Kolata, a New York Times science writer questions the notion that thin is a realistic or necessary objective for most. In her book, Rethinking Thin, she asserts that weight loss is an unachievable goal for many, and that losing weight isn’t so much about health as it is about money, trends, and impossible ideals. Recent research also challenges the idea that being overweight is bad. A study in JAMA, the Journal of the American Medical Association, found that being 25 pounds overweight did not increase the risk of heart disease and cancer, and may even help stave off infections.

It’s true that people can be fit and healthy and not necessarily be thin, just as it’s true that thin people may not necessarily be healthy. Good health, rather than weight, should be our focus; too often, it’s not. Striving for an unhealthy level of thinness may be detrimental to our health, but understanding the health repercussions of obesity is also critical.

9. This is not a diet; this is your life.

The diet industry would have us all think that we can lose weight fast, and that’s that. But most people who maintain their weight understand that eating and exercising are not temporary conditions, to be dumped once a pair of jeans fit. Instead, they are lifestyle choices, and ones to be made for the long haul.

so there ya' have it... we have to eat right, eat smart, and EXERCISE!
*that's the hardest part! so tonight I'm going to put down the computer and exercise before Letterman so I can see one of my Texas bands, The Randy Rogers Band, perform on David Letterman tonight! You should watch, too!!!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

So Long My Friends...

I have to say goodbye to some things I love...

and i would put in pictures, but I'm writing this at work and the picture uploader thing isn't cooperating, so here's the list...

*chocolate...
*regular dr. pepper (but diet's ok b/c there's no calories, but I'm still sticking to water until I can't stand it anymore)
*chips (I can't eat just one... I'm blaming the salt!) (oh, and I'm cutting back on that, too!)
* empty nights at home - they are now filled with activity, whether it's cleaning, organizing, or exercising, and maybe a combo of a few of these all together...
* Pizza - I'll be scraping the ingredients off the crust and going everything low-cal; low fat...
* Crackers...sigh again with the salt and carb thing... why can't they do salt substitutes that don't make you retain water...

oh yeah, and I'm drinking a ton of water... staying fuller for longer, and making good choices...
I'm a huge fan and cheerleader for ground turkey, eggbeaters, and low-cal items! oh, and did I mention skinny cow ice cream desserts?

I'm gonna have my rewards, don't you worry... but now I have my incentive!

Starting tomorrow morning, we are doing a public weigh in at WORK! this is in front of the people I work with, and there's a buy in, too, so I've not only invested the money to see it thru, I've invested the effort, and the "embarassment" of showing my weight to everyone!

Now I just gotta exercise!!! I've got my gameplan down, with alternatives, so I need to make sure I stick to it! last night was taking down the Christmas tree after getting home at nearly 9 pm, so no exercise, but tonight, I'm getting home and I'm gonna boogie in the living room to a healthy heart rate... maybe I'll look in to the WiiFit! ??? (if you have one, tell me how you like it...)

oh, and one last thing... it's fun, so get excited!
I read www.blissfullydomestic.com on a regular basis... it's actually subscribed on my google reader (YAY!) and they do contests on a regular basis... so here's the link to the current one... go play! you have until the 17th to do so!!!

CONTEST

Monday, January 5, 2009

New Year, New Look...

So I figured I'd clean up the festive look, but continue the "cool" colors, and hey, I'm a fan of argyle... what can I say?

So I'm going to try and keep up with posting a list of the music I see each week, the week consisting of Sun. to Sat. I wanna see how muchmusic I can actually see in a year and how many different artists I am exposed to...I've never really kept track...

1/1/09 Brandon Rhyder - Midnight Rodeo - (at the stroke of midnight, technically it counts ;)
1/1/09 Band of Heathens - Gruene Hall
1/3/09 Bruce Robison - The Broken Spoke

so I rang in the new year listening to Brandon Rhyder & his band at Midnight Rodeo with Mindy and her friend, Janine. All in all a great time, great music, great friends. I can't even begin to tell you all how extraordinary the people watching was... INCREDIBLE! LOL... sad displays of women being those I never want to be... a pretty good reminder...

I've had highs, I've had some lows, but all in all, I've not lost myself... I even saw that he called and texted twice in the span of 5 minutes and I continued to ignore him... I don't think I'll ever understand why he thinks it's ok to call over a year after he told me he was getting married... I've moved on... and one would think he would have, too... I'm good w/o him... I'm actually, dare I say, better?!?!?!?

I got back on the scale yesterday and I was happy... I haven't reached my first goal, but I've definitely stayed where I was and that's where than where I started, so not all's lost... now I am jumping back on the weight loss wagon...

This year I want to spend more time with my family, love those around me a little more and find new people to love, too... In that, too, I want more time with God and learn how to not be so afraid of the quiet silence that will inevitably find me.. maybe some how I will find peace in it, rather than fear...

I'll create my gym habit and might even look good...errrr... better when bathing suit season rolls around...

This year I hope to discover even more great music, too... My favorite discoveries via other musicians and friends, have been The Mother Truckers (2007 find at Gruene Hall), Paul Thorn (via Matt Powell/Wade Bowen), and Sean McConnell (via Wade Bowen)... and just the other day I heard Bethany Dillon sing "Beautiful", and it was...

here's to a great year...

2009, I'm gonna make it mine...